when strangers become lovers

2010-08-01T22:41:00.003+08:00

What's happening?
1 day we are happily together,
the other we are fighting.

Our Rs is just like the weather in SG.
Its unpredictable.
U wont be able to know when its going to rain or shine.
However,there will always be a rainbow after the end of every storm,
But,
How long can the rainbow be there?

Even the trees and its branches keeps falling down these few days.
I noe things myt be stagnant at tyms.
But it seems my job/lifestyle is taking a toll on this rs.
Everytime I pray before my shift,
I come in 1 piece,and goes back in 1 so that I am able to enjoy the next day.
Enjoy my day with you.
But it seems like there will always be obstacle that we have to jump through.
But it doesnt matter.

No matter how high the obstacle is,
I'll still try my best to jump over it.
Just for YOU..

Siti Aisah.

I love u..

2010-07-17T22:14:00.002+08:00

i dont like to be emo. but you know there is just some of the days where you feel so terrible and thinks that you have the worst life anyone could ever imagined. and if i made any grammatical or some random english mistakes in this post pardon me but i dont give a damn already. so yah.

i just dont get it. is it so difficult to just accept the fact that everyone is different. if someone is different from you and thinks differently from you, its NORMAL. its not weird or whatever.

is it so difficult for you to just be sensitive to other people's feelings because hello!?! you are not the only one living on this earth. the world doesnt revolve around you, you and only you.you wont die if you dont shoot those unnecessary stuffs. save for things that are more relevant.

i dont like when people complain "oh she is so sensitive. everything have to take it to heart" So what? it gives you the permission to just shoot your mouth without considering what the other party would feel. i have to admit i am one of those who is sensitive. but must i numb my feelings so i can make you happy and let u continue feeling that its fine.

please lah.

just a random rambling from my daily life cause my life is not perfect so am i.

adios.

love matters

2010-06-28T23:07:00.004+08:00

Sometimes the one we love the most is the hardest to hold on to...

- FB mate

No one says being in a relationship is easy. Mine is no exception i must say. Tornado. Hurricane. Tsunami. U name it. Everything has hit my relationship with rahmat. But interestingly, we survived. I guess what is important in a relationship is knowing what your ultimate goal is. What is your purpose of having that relationship. And focus on that goal and purpose.

It doesnt hurt to plan out the future of your relationship. its healthy and never to early as it will help remind you to focus and persevere if anything rocks ur relationship in the future.

However I must say it is easier said than done. Being a girl, my emotions usually gets in the way and get the better of me. Thats when my boyfriend will step in and talk sense to me. I so love my boyfriend very much. He is the reason we survived till today.

Now that Im crystal clear he is the one. Im going to focus and hopes for the best for the both of us. Amin.

Cu... Mintak nombor bleh?

2010-06-21T11:25:00.003+08:00

hello hello!

okay got interesting story to share!! weee! no interesting no share thats why no update! bbut that doesnt mean my life no interesting eh. just no interesting enough to be blogged about... hee!

ok blah blah. lets go!!

that time eh. i went to kampung so as usual eh i and my mother take red bus go johor go larkin. okay everything was norMAL... but then *jeng jeng jeng* after the msia checkpoint i took the same red bus, i got a seat (WHICH IS RARE!) cause i was among the first to queue. but THEN! an old makcik just board the bus with a big bag so being the nice and kind and considerate me give up my seat to the makcik. and i had to move back in order to give new passengers space...

THEN! Came this pakcik standing beside me.. He looks presentable.. Maroon collar shirt tucked in and hair combed back.. So as we start the journey, he started to talk to me.. Pakciks just cant have a quiet journey.. sure must talk one..

So we talked and he asked 'Go where?' 'Dengan mak eh?' (I think he saw my mum)'Live where' and i dont know whether he is kidding or wat.. but we happened to live in the same area eh.. just a few blocks apart eh.. *ish ish ish*

okay here comes the tragic part EH.. he ask for my number! he said 'Kalau ade masa lapang boleh lah kita sembang-sembang. Kalau sudi kita bleh keluar bersiar-siar, makan-makan...' Waaahh! I feel like during P.Ramlee times sia... I was like 'Insyallah' so i gave my number and he have to take out his glasses to type the number on his handphone EH.. He is THAT OLD i tell you!! but dun worry I gave a fake number! heheheh!

I gotta say that was my longest journey to larkin EVAAAAAA! When reached larkin, i told my mum.. and she freaked out! hahahah! who wouldnt?!!? Dh tebiat agaknye orang tua tu... *ISH ISH ISH*

and with that interesting encounter, I continued my journey with mommy to kampung.. Kampung Sweet Kampung..

ok dah penat from all that drama.. till the next interesting encounter, ADIOSSSSSS!!

2010-05-09T20:34:00.002+08:00

There's part of me
You'll never know
The only thing
I'll never show

Hopelessly, I'll love you endlessly
Hopelessly, I'll give you everything
But I won't give you up.
I won't let you down
I won't leave you falling
If the moment ever comes

It's plain to see,
It's trying to speak
Cherished dreams
Forever asleep

Hopelessly, I'll love you endlessly
Hopelessly, I'll give you everything
But I won't give you up
I won't let you down
I won't leave you falling
If the moment ever comes.

Hopelessly, I'll love you endlessly
Hopelessly, I'll give you everything
But I won't give you up
I won't let you down
I won't leave you falling
If the moment ever comes.

I love u baby..

Rahmat Hidayat

2010-04-15T00:58:00.002+08:00

WHO WANTS TO GO WITH MEEEEE?!?!?!?!?!??!

*desperately looking*

2010-04-13T15:42:00.002+08:00

Come back soon dear Love...
Coz i miss u very much..
And we'll have a proper date on Thurs.
I LOVE U

2010-04-09T10:04:00.001+08:00

I just want to express my deepest love for my niece and nephew, Nurul and Aniq at how much they care for me during the period of my stay in their house. I’m really touched by how they took care of me and ensure that my stay in their house is a memorable one. Even though, I kept coming back to their house to sleep, I was welcomed with open arms every single time (at least by the kids) and Aniq even say ‘Ucu! U sleep rumah kita 100 days lah!’ And when their mother did not allow them to sleep together with me on the last night, they asked me whether I’m ok sleeping alone, whether I’m scared or not. Although I am scared but I do not have a choice and they do not have a choice too. After ensuring I am ok then they proceed to their respective rooms.

I’m blessed and touched by love and concern like this.

2010-04-07T20:09:00.003+08:00

On beloved's request....

Why are women hard to understand?
Well,just sometimes.
1 minute they might be smiling,laughing,giggling.
Then the next, they will just keep quiet for no apparent reason.
(Can somebody please tell whoever was playing chinese opera next block to keep quiet!)
Im not pointing out to anybody in particular.
This is general.
Women will expect us to be au fait with their feelings,emotions.
But do they understand what a guy might be feeling.
(Can whoever was blasting off to the chinese opera on tv next block shut up)
Oh anw, watched clash of the titans with baby for 2 DAYS STRAIGHT.
First was non 3d.
Then the next day her sister says she got two extra tix for the 3d version.
Thought hard wether to go or nt.
Decided to give it a try..
:)
Baby bought new camera with cool functions too.
Jakon lh katekn.
But the camera was so cool till i myself felt jakon.
But have to keep maintain composure lh katekn.
Haha.
Wish me luck for IPPT tmrw.

PS:I dont need any luck. Coz i know im gonna fail my 2.4km run BADLY..haha..

I
Love
U
Siti Aisah

Anw,can somebody teach me how to put a video in iphone? .Im an iphone idiot? .hehe.

Over and out,
Rahmat

clashes of everything

2010-04-06T10:53:00.006+08:00

*insert long sigh*

mum and dad have gone for their usual honeymoon at kampung again. and this time for four days. i dun mind if im not a chicken. but the truth is i am. sad and pathetic truth indeed. so this chicken has to go seek refuge at her brother.'s place. but any home is different from your own home.

lucky i have my love to keep me company.went to watch clash of the titans with him. not so awesome movie. but spending time with him sure is AWESOME! except for the last bit of the day where things got a lil rough. but we manage to mend things and end the day with too sweet Cinammon Melts n too diluted Iced Milo for supper at MAC. but anything taste nice with him around. hehehe!

anyway thanks love for everything...appreciate it lots.

iloveyouuuuu.

never will i whine

2010-04-04T13:40:00.006+08:00

hello hello!

lots of stuffs have been happening but i was just too lazy to hoo-haa about it at my blog. but ohwells. just something random to share. my iphone batt life is driving me crazy. partly my fault too for being forgetful and plain lazy to charge it. i guess ive learnt my lesson after what happened on 'not so good' friday.

the story goes like this. i was really late to meet my sis and the kids for a wild wild wet outing at cck swimming complex. at that point of time my batt was already four percent. i told myself to be positive and just gave a quick call to my sis, ask their location and inform her il be there.

then along the way my phone gave up on me to recharge her and died.

and so i reached the swimming complex and search for my sister like a lost child. pathetic. searching high and low. there were tons of kids on that day. great! and they all look the same! lagi great! i could not find nurul, aniq, daniah, adena anywhere! I gave up and look for a payphone and there isnt any! urgh!

so what did I do? something i didnt thought i would do..

I borrowed a phone from a stranger with my pitiful face seeking for sympathy at my pathetic state. she look at me one kind and look at her friend and finally agreed to borrow me her phone. *Pause!* Just a question to ask: Do I look like someone who will steal a phone?!?!? NOOOO!

-_-

Lets continue.. So I called my sister. And where was she?!? She was already out eating with the kids at KFC near my house! ha.ha.ha. I dont whether to cry or laugh.

So I went home. and thats the story of my life.

what the hell. i know. when i reached home, aniq was like asking me 'Ucu! U swim just now? U swim so fast come back? Ucu! U got try the slide slide??'

I know i was being mean but I just say to him 'Shut Up aniq!'

ok sad pathetic story aside. i bought a neww cammeeraaa! yeaaayys! like finally. I finally decided to buy one cause waiting for other to upload the photos will take ages! *ehem ehem* hehehe!

the coolsome feature of this camera is the small screen at the front so I can take pictures myself and not worrying whether my head is cut off or not! weeee! this camera is soo for me! and the smile detection is simply amazing. u smile, the cam will automatically take a snapshot. but if u frown or wat, it will not take. ive experiment it and it works! hahaha!

technology nowadays. tsk3. just amazing.

my life is not that pathetic. and im learning not to whine cause with eyes to see, ears to hear and legs to walk, the world is actually yours (inspired by a video uploaded by a friend on facebook. will upload and share with you guys in the next entry ok :)

blessed with a lovely home and family, great friends and fantastically-boomz boyfriend,

never shall i whine ever again...

adios. take care!

Move On

2010-03-27T23:14:00.002+08:00

Sorry dude..
She wont be going back to you cause you threw it all away.
We are happy now.
So, stop hoping and stop living in denial.
I dont have to be worried because im in control of the situation.
Out to you.
MOVE ON!!

PS: I love u baby..!!!!!!!! :-)
Taser Taser..

Over and out,
Rahmat

16 months.

2010-03-19T22:31:00.001+08:00

Happy 16 mnths baby..lets share it with the world..
It may be rough for us today.
Feelings that were hidden among us were let out today..
Maybe sometimes we dont realize hw much we meant to each other.
And maybe sometimes we just feign ignorant.
But i as a human being,like i say,I'll need guidance.
i dont want it to end.
Not now,
Not tomorrow,
Not next year,
And not anytime.
It always dawn on me, if we were to finish it,
Do we still have the courage/strength to face tomorrow.
To most of them, they'll just say "move on dude"
But the period of moving on.
Do all of them experienced it before,
Have they felt how torturing it could be.
It's like today we might sms and laugh with each other,
And the next day, there wont be any more sms/call that u eagerly awaits,
It may be a rough time for us now.
But i assure u it will be be smoother in time to come.
i noe we had this conversation for quite a number of times.
And nothing seems to change,but i believed there is some improvement kan?
What we talk about just now,really bring me back down to earth and realised that anything can happpen.
So,lets take this weekend for us to get away from this for some time,to give us some space and some thoughts to think about.
Like I say just now,i am imperfect, and that is y i need guidance.
But all these 1 year and 4 months when im with you,
it has changed me to be a more patience and to think rationally in most of the things that i do.
I might be selfish at times,but,i need you to voice it out to me even though it might hurt.
But at least i realised that.So, voice out ok..
This is a long one ok
I love u baby..
Very much..
I'll still hang on,no matter what it takes.
even if its to the very last inch.

*Nobody says it was easy,*
Oh,Its such a shame for us to part,
Nobody says it was easy,
No one ever said it would be this hard,
I'm going back to the stars

Coldplay- The Scientist

Over And Out,
Rahmat Hidayat

hurt.

2010-03-09T23:25:00.003+08:00

it hurts really bad right now.

and tears just cant seem to make it right.

i miss him. i waited for him to call me since morning but he did not. but i understand and not the slightest angry at him cause he did make the effort to text me once in a while. i text him back that i miss him. i text him that for 3 times today. cause i really do miss him. he did not say the usual 'i miss u too' which is fine as i understand he must be busy working. i told myself not to follow my feelings although my heart keep saying that he did not miss me at all. but i throw that thought away as i want to change. i do not want to be that emotional girlfren who follows her feelings and make rash decision.

i said to him yesterday that i am going to change. for the better. i will make him the happiest man in the world. I will not make him sad, angry or disappointed. i will listen to all his rantings and complaints and not say a thing. i will be there for him although he might not have all the time for me. i vow to prove myself to him.

and today when he finally end work at 8. he called me. but i wasnt there to pick up. i called him back at 930. longing to hear his voice and hear those words. but instead i was scolded.aku kau. aku kau. ape nak jadi dengan kau. it just breaks my heart. i could really feel it in me. the hurt. that pain which you could not describe in words.

i wanted to stay true to my promise and not to succumb to my emotions and feelings. but i just could not. i was too hurt.

and thats the end of today.

im really hearbroken at how things end up and how today ended.

...

2010-03-06T19:16:00.003+08:00

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are

I had to find you
Tell you I need you
Tell you I've set you apart

Tell me your secrets
And ask me your questions
Oh, let's go back to the start

Running in circles
Coming up tails
Heads on the science apart

Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard

Oh take me back to the start

The Scientist
Coldplay

I hate it when that time of the month is here and I could not control my damn emotions. Its just so unpredictable how my mood can be good and then just change to moody self the next minute. This is fine if I am living in this world all alone. But that is not possibly the case like duh. So people around me had to get affected just because of this stupid emo side of me. Its unfair i know. But im sorry. I have very low control over emotions. I am actually very brittle inside. So I just seek your kind understanding to please just bear with me. It only comes once a month thank god for that! I cant imagine if I have it every week. I think I will live as a loner with no one to love.

Im sorry boyfriend. Just your luck to get me as your girlfriend i guess.

And doing assignment just make things better!

-__-

2010-02-11T23:00:00.002+08:00

I dont think it is a good sign when you feel like you dont want to put in anymore effort to make it work.

But thats what I feel right now.

No doubt the love is there. But I guess that is not enough to sustain the relationship.

Im not saying its over or what. It is just one of those bad days when you just feel like putting it aside for awhile and breatheeee.

ohwell.

just glad the twelveth is finally here! it seems forever.

being an adult sucks! have to worry about money money money! pay bills lah. what lah. haiz.

oklah bye.

Busy!

2010-01-06T10:32:00.002+08:00

Holla,

If not for GF threat to closed this blog if i never update it,i wouldnt have did it..
haha...kidding eh love.

Anw, job has taken its toll on me ever since i start shifts. I lost count of days and even the dates.See how bad it is.And the worst thing is,i get to see 2 dead bodies on 2 days straight.And in a gruesome manner. Oh well,some people chose to end their life early,but couldnt they do it in a much more nicer and gentle way.hmm. GF Has been pissed off with me lately. I dont have any idea why.But still, i love u baby..Very much..Oh well. Off to see GF and play bowl in 4 hours time. Im gonna get my-not-enuf-nap abit before that..Till then. Cya when i cya..

Regards,
Rahmat Hidayat

2010-01-05T16:29:00.002+08:00

Mereka meragui wujudnya cinta yang sejati

Tidak hati ini

Semenjak dari mula

Ku yakin ada cinta

Cintalah yang memungkinkan segala

Ku rela...

Biar betapa pun perit tertusuk duri

Jalan berliku tiada bertepi

Ku percaya tidak sia-sia aku diuji

Demi cinta tersembunyi hikmahNya pasti

Ku Percaya Ada Cinta
Dato' Siti Nurhaliza

2010-01-05T16:10:00.002+08:00

1st January 2009

Bagaikan Sakti

Dato' Siti Nurhaliza and M.Nasir

This has got to be the best BEST BESSSSTTT concert I have been to so far. Even the previous Siti Nurhaliza solo concert cant beat this! The concert combines two of the best musicians who conquer the music industry in both Malaysia and Singapore. Believe it or not the concert lasted for 3 hours straight without intermission! It was worth the money thats for sure!

And I cant believe Im saying this but MNASIR IS THE MAN maaaannn!! He is totally crazy on stage and he even got us up and dance to one of his songs which is quite a rare occasion for an Esplanade concert... He sangs hits like Sahabat, Mentera Semerah Padi and other classics that I didnt knew I knew. haha!

I didnt know what to expect for this concert but the entrance by Siti was already enough to get you at the edge of your seat. She sang her all time favourite hits like Nirmala, Cindai, Biarlah Rahsia, Ku Milikmu and her latest hit single Ku Percaya Ada Cinta. What I love about Siti she make the effort to make remixes for her songs so that audiences wont get bored. The song Ku Milikmu she remix with tunes from the overrated Single Ladies which sounded cool and refreshing..

What I have learnt from this concert is Dont be afraid to splurge when it comes to Siti Nurhaliza's Concert because she will never fail to disappoint you!

Trust ME!!

:))

2010-01-02T09:12:00.004+08:00

Look how my babies have transformed? From ugly to GORGEOUS!! Whohooo!

By the way they have been named by my brother. The older one is Ah Bird. The other one is Hohey. Weird but ok lh. Credits for the creativity.. hehehe..

This is when they are 2 weeks old.. Look how burok they were! but cute still and innocent...

This is when they reach the weaning stage. 5 weeks or more... Looking good with their green feathers which are barely there for Hohey..

And this is when they suddenly turned gorgeous.. With the mixture of orange and different shades of green...

And since there are so pretty, I have decided to send them for their first ever photoshoot by ME! Hahaha!

This is them getting all excited over my new purchases of bangles.. I think they are shopholics too... hehe..

With their new colours come their new habit... Which is much hated by every member of the family.. BITING!! But what to do its their way of explring the environment and form of interaction... So tahan aje lh...

I tried to kiss them the other time and Hohey bite my top lip.. I guess I take that as she is kissing me in a very painful way..

I still love them though no matter how naughty they are.. Flying all over the house and shitting all over..

Next post, Siti and M. Nasir!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-12-29T23:48:00.005+08:00

Sezairi Sazali won Singapore Idol 2009! Yeay for him!

Cause I really think he deserves it. I think Sylvia was great too that nite. Honestly, when I heard Sylvia sang 'Mercy', I thought to myself 'Okay. Thats hot! Sezairi can forget about winning already..' But then when Sezairi sang Virtual Insanity next.. I had mixed feelings about what the outcome will be. It was really a neck to neck competition between the two.

However, I do not see whats the chaos about sezairi not having the right of winning this year idol. He gave a good fight that nite. And he won. Get over it people.

I do not worship sezairi or what but i just wrote this post when I came across an online discussion about it.

The discussion: Are you happy Sezairi is your new Singapore Idol? Do you think his performances on Sunday night earned him the title?

No surprise there were some who critic and argue that Sylvia is the rightful owner of the Idol crown. Blabla. But there is one comment that I think can sum up what I want to say in my post and hopes that it will shut people's mouth.

Mrs DOuggy (whoever you are)

Monday, 28 December 2009 13:19:23
I was rooting for Sylvia but when Sezairi sang "Crazy" I knew he would win. If you have any doubts abt Sezairi, or not happy that another malay won this, see the bigger picture. Look back at Sylvia'a videos. She sang "Yellow" flat. Another song she sang during the spectacular was also flat. She didnt get my attention when she sang "yellow" or "touched by an angel". But wen sezairi sang, i was mersmerised. Remember I was rooting for sylvia at first. dont let your emotions or your lack of capability to detect tones (deaf tones) affect your judgment abt who deserves to win. If Malays vote for Malays, then sezairi wont win, cos Malays only make up 20% of Singapore's population. All those voters cant be wrong or deaf. And if you want to know what Taufik'd doing, he has produced many albums both in English and Malay, wrote his own songs as well as other artistes and won many reqional musical awards. now that's how a deserving idol works!

Well said.

Anw all the best to Sezairi.

2009-12-25T11:57:00.002+08:00

urgh! i forgot my password! so i cant log into the portal and check my results till today when almost everyone in nie has known their results by now! urgh! urgh!

and whats stupid about the system is if u forgot your password, you can reset your password. sounds good rite. but in order to reset your password you need to enter your old password...

errrrrr.....

err......

-___-

like wth. i forgot my damn password thats y im resetting it!

ohgosh. someone pls help me! i need to know my password before the course registration.

haiz.. i should eat more fish from now on to improve my memory power ah.

*insert longest sigh ever*

2009-12-06T17:14:00.004+08:00

Hello people.

It’s been a while since I’ve blogged heh. Well I was plain lazy actually. I guess all my brain juices and energy had been used up during the crazy exam period. Till I have none to spare to update my dearest blog.

So the long awaiting holiday has come. Finally. And will be gone soon before you know it. Holidays are spent at home without the usual trips to kampung as my dad is away at sea working and unfortunately, his job requires him to stay on board 24/7. So to my dearest friends or friend who awaits a second round of Aisah’s Kampung Expedition, I’m afraid it’s not going to happen this december. However please stay tuned next year for the latest updates ok?

What I’ve been doing is to sit home and get fat. -__-

No kidding.

I want to go out but I pity my mum who is staying at home all alone. I can imagine just how much she missed my dad. I can feel for her. All I can do to help ease the rindu-serindu-rindunya is to sleep with her every night. Apart from mummy, now I have to schedule all my outings between 12 to 6 only. That means I can only go out after 12 and must be back before 6. Not because of curfew but because of my new born babies.They are not named yet.

So meet Baby Bird 1 and 2.

They are simply adorable and just recently noisy.

Although my brother is the one that bought them and is the owner technically, I am the one who is always feeding and cleaning them. Cause my brother is simply out working or just out. But I don’t mind. Since I’ve been in charge in taking care of them, Ive become emotionally attached to them. I don’t mind staying up till 12am to feed them and waking up at 6 the next morning to feed them again. However, its quite a hassle that my going out time have to be shorten because of them. But ohwell. This takes sacrifices I guess.
And patience of course. I just can’t wait for them to grow and their feathers to grow especially. Now they are like botak. Ugly but still adorable. Haha.

Will post their picture again when they have grown ok.

My another baby, Rahmat (hee!) has started his regular shift and its crazy i tell you. Once he had to work for more than 16 hours. This I called labour abuse. Section 12334 Code 5678. Ok I crap that one up eh. Duh. But its really crazy.

Being his sweet self, he say he is not tired and still insist on going out with me. But I felt like I was out with a zombie. There I was telling my long grandmother stories and he will be 'Huh? Ape?'

-___-

Ohwell. I must be the understanding girlfriend I guess. His side-KICK! Its been his dream and its unfair to pull him down right.

Hopefully he get repaid for his sacrifices and dedication. And hopefully in the form of keching-kechinnggg!!! hehehehe!

Materialistic sia aku! Tsk3.

ALrite.. till the next post! which i cant guarantee u anytime soon!

heee!

ADIOS!

2009-11-19T23:07:00.004+08:00

to my angel in blue...

Remember the first day when I saw your face

remember the first day when you smiled at me

you stepped to me and then you said to me

I was the women you dreamed about

Remember the first day when you called my house

Remember the first day when you took me out

we had butterflies although we tried to hide it

and we both had a beautiful night

the way we held each others hands

the way we talked the way we laughed

it felt so good to find true love

I knew right then and there you were the one

I know that he loves me cause he told me so

I know that he loves me cause his feelings show

when he stares at me you see he cares for me

you see how he's so deep in love

I know that he loves me cause it's obvious

I know that he loves me cause it's me he trusts

and he's missin me if he's not kissin me

and when he looks at me

his brown eyes tell his soul

Remember the first day, the first day we kissed

Remember the first day we had an argument we apologized

and then we compromised

and we haven't argued since

Remember the first day we stopped playing games

Remember the first day you fell in love with me

it felt so good for you to say those words

cause I felt the same way too

the way we held each others hands

the way we talked

the way we laughed it felt so good to find true love

I knew right then and there you were the one

I'm so happy so happy that you’re in my life

and baby now that you’re a part of me

you've showed me showed me

the true meaning of love ...

Happy Ist anniversary baby!

iloveyou.

LOVE!

2009-11-11T21:30:00.002+08:00

1 year anniversary is coming.And i have yet to plan anything.
We've come this far.Through
ups and downs,
Thick And thin,
Sunshine and rain,
tornadoes and monsoons,
and watever disaster that you can think of.
But as time pass by,the harder it is to pass by each day.
But we make it through 1 way or another.
God please give me the strength to pass by thru the obstacles that we will be facing.
And please show me the light at the end of every dark tunnel that i pass through.
Because i love her so much.Very much indeed.

I never knew there would be a better tomorrow
But you've come into my life and taken away all my sorrow

My days of sadness are a thing of the past
Because I have found true love at last

My days of emptiness are gone for good
Because you fill a void in my heart that you should

You've opened a window .
You've shown me the light
And my love for you will continue to burn bright

I LOVE U SITI AISAH!

PS:where r u my dear phone.Can u call me back? :-(

Angels In Blue

2009-11-05T10:33:00.002+08:00

"Angels In Blue"
I had this friend you see, who loved
God, Country, You and me.

My friend went to work day or night
the peace to keep, so you and I could sleep.

He worked the holidays and weekends,
away from family and friends.
To keep this peace for you and me.

Each day this friend put his life on the line
to spare yours and mine.

Then one day he paid the price, he gave his life.

You've done well my friend, patrolling these earthly streets.
Now it's time to walk on Heaven's beat.

The next time you see a Police Officer or two,
remember they are one of God's Angels in Blue.

And God said; "Blessed are the Peace Makers."

By Lieutenant Stanley Hascher

2009-11-02T23:31:00.003+08:00

Jiwa ini tanpa di sisimu
Selamanya hampa tiada arti
Bila sampai nanti ku 'kan menyesali hati
Kar'na ku disini melepaskanmu

Cinta maafkan aku yang t'lah melupakanmu
Ku tak setiakan hatiku saat menanti
Tapi sungguh aku tak ingin melepaskan cintamu
Kar'na hatiku masih milikmu

Jangan kau tinggalkan aku

Ku tak ingin terpisah darimu
Kar'na hati yang tak mengingkari
Dan aku disini s'makin terhempas tanpamu
Hingga ku tak mampu tenangkan diri
Kau yang s'lalu di hatiku

Maafkanlah sayangku
Menafikkan dirimu dari cintaku

Jangan kau lepaskan aku

-Tak Setiakan Hati by Dygta

im sorry...

2009-10-30T09:55:00.003+08:00

kepada dia yang telah pergi meninggalkn kita...

Kau yang tlah pergi
Saat-saat terakhir
Ku teringat dengan mu
Yang terbayang kini

-Kau Yg Tlah Pergi by Caffeine-

sometimes its scary to think how short life is.
sometimes i chose to be in self denial.
although deep inside, i know its a fact and we cannot run away from it.

im sorry if i sound so emotional but ive been facing news regarding deaths again and again.
first it was my ex primary school friend.
2 days ago it was my ex boyfriend.
and yesterday it was 2 boys who was reported drowned at bp lake.

...

haiz.

ya allah. bukalah hatiku untuk bertaubat padamu tuhan.
amin.

2009-10-29T22:19:00.004+08:00

21 days/ 504 hours/ 30,240 minutes/ 1, 814, 400 seconds

to our one year anniversary...

but the nearer it gets, the more difficult it gets...

but i really hope whatever is happening now is just temporary.. cause i really love him..

i really do..

2009-10-26T23:33:00.004+08:00

ok ok updates on life!

ok go!

well.. school's life is getting hectic as eveeeerrr.. miss aisah here never learn her lesson. still sticks to her 'last minute' motto in life although it has proven her to be completely unsuccessful in many instances. but still sticking to it till today. Impressive I must say.. impressively stubborn that is..

ok moving on…

im broke as usual at this period in the calendar. No surprise to those who know me well. Hehe! But still got the kecchinngg2 to watch the Simfoni Filem Nusantara at Esplanade with my beloved boyfriend. Hurhur.. My main purpose of going to the concert is to watch my another beloved, ROSSA!!! SHE IS SO CUTE AND BUBBLYY!! And gorgeous of course.. I wanted to go crazy when she came on stage.. like really crazy.. Felt like shouting out loud ‘ROOOSSSAAA!!! I LOOOOVVEEE UUUU!!!’ But because boypren is sitting beside me lh kn, have to maintain.. damn.

But she was great! Her voice is just like how she sounds on the radio/tv. This is what I call REAL TALENT! Not like that Singapore idol guy who is still in till date. God knows y?!?! I bet his parents are rich buggers who vote for him. Urgh.

Ok moving on…

So much anger not good…

Love life.. Good..Had a major fight.. but resolve.. Alhamdulilah.. Being in a relationship is tougher than taking exams man.. But if u can handle it well, the feeling u get is suuuuweeeet… heee! Love u hensem!

Just came back from kampong! Didn’t go back for like 4 months already… Everyone misses me! HAHAHHAAA..

Went to City Square with beloved cousins to watch Papadom, a very nice movie highly recommended featuring the ADORABLE Afdlin Shauki! Love him!

Just don’t like the culture there that it is fine to make comments about the movie out loud during showtime.. Especially by the mats there… Buat mcm bapak dieorg punye cinema! Luckily its cheap considering the currency wise.. Not so much of heart pain..

And also I don’t get the craze of getting married early man. My dad cakap ‘Dh gatal sangat!’ hahahha! One of the girl at kampong just got married. She is 20 and her husband is 22. He looks so small. I thot he was 16! He has to lafaz the akad nikah 3x.. Nervous wreck i guess!

I mean its fun to get married but what follows is the one that is a bit not fun lah kn.. But I guess its fine. I mean untuk menghindari maksiat lah kan.

Ohwell. I think I should shut up now. Jangan nk MP (Macam Paham)

Hehehe!!

Ok have a great week ahead people!

And all the best to baby for his new day at work on Sunday! Selamat lh kamu dengan kaum2 mu! huhuhu!

Adios!!

New Vocation

2009-10-26T20:42:00.003+08:00

Its confirmed then.

That I'll be starting shift on dis coming Sun.Its gonna be a nyt shift.Damn.One part of me looks forward to it.While the other part of me makes me think am i really ready for it.An incident happened last Sat which keeps me thinking if i am really up for the high standards of SPF.And me being me.All the 'what if' starts knocking on my brain door.Oh well,i have signed the contract.So,

BRING IT ON MAN

My hands is already itching.

YourRespectfully,
Rahmat Hidayat

Meltz

2009-10-19T21:59:00.002+08:00

Wats with the post below?
Oh wells.
Wake up call eh.

Anw,
Guess wat?
I saw Rossa live and upclose.
I noe u guys r jealous.
Again,who cares!

Your Respectfully,
Rahmat Hidayat

2009-10-14T23:57:00.003+08:00

was shocked by the news from two of my gfs that my pri and sec schoolmate had just passed away today.
was shocked when i checked fb just to realise that she is actually sarah aqilah's sister.

salam takziah to the family.

...

it just makes you realise how fragile life is.

the fear of death..
which you know you cant escape from..
have i done enough to secure myself in heaven....
i dont think im even near to the minimum.

but i have to say its easier to be bad than good.

when am i going to change?

i dont know. i really dont know.

i just hope its not too late.....

amin.

2009-10-10T23:44:00.003+08:00

bf is busy with his family events today. feel so lonely. i think ive grown to be dependent on him for company. which is not a good thing. once he starts his regular shift, it will be alot tougher. urgh.

need to retune myself. does that make sense? ohwell.

now need to work on my art portfolio which is due next friday. which is going to be alot of work and FUN!

granny called just now and ask me if i have a bf. i have a very random granny fyi. i cant lie so i just say ya. which i regretted by the way. but i have to respect and listen to what the old wise lady have to say. but get the usual response. "belajar dulu. aisah masih muda. nanti dah 24/25 baru cari boipren. pegi amik kursus kat masjid tu. belajar. belajar. belajar."

neneks.

ohwell. hopefully tmr's rayayaya is on. sigh.

salam mesra dari saya,
aisah jasmin

Loner

2009-10-08T23:48:00.003+08:00

U were there when they need u.
But where were they when u needed them the most.

Ponder Over It

Yours respectfully,
Rahmat Hidayat

2009-10-08T17:26:00.007+08:00

excuse my bf's previous entry. hahaha!

his expression of love might be bizzare sometimes. kwang2.

so what did i want to update about just now eh?

ohyah! i want to buy a new phone! i think i said that like ages ago! haha! but guess what im still stuck with my beloved red w910i. but now i have fallen in love with a phone which everyone is advising me not to buy. haha! its the handsome n97!

reading all the reviews below make think not twice but thrice whether to purchase the phone or not.

oh why!

The Nokia N97 is not a "bad" phone and it doesn't deserve the some of the harsh reviews that I've seen recently. In fact, it has good hardware, great storage, and nice design. It is also better than the Sony Ericsson Xperia. -ubergizmo.com
Perhaps the months of anticipation have worked against it, but we’d struggle to recommend the Nokia N97 over its smartphone rivals. -phonemag.com
The bottom line: While the Nokia N97 is packed with features and offers the freedom of an unlocked phone, its clunky touch interface, sky-high price tag, and outdated operating system make it hard to recommend when there are better touch-screen smartphones on the market. -cnet

Posted pathetically by Aicha Jazmeen

2009-10-05T22:05:00.003+08:00

Even though its hard to understand and please u sumtyms,this i assure u.

My Love 4 u Has nOt EveN ChAnGe 1 bIt!

I StILL lOvE u LyK hOw I UsEd To.

AnD I StIlL LoVe u VeRy mUcH.

NoThINg HaS ChANgEd FoR The PasT 10 MnTHS.

And NoThInG's GoNna ChaNgE In YeARs To CoME.

I
LOVE
U
SITI AISAH..

PS:For those of u who might think dat dis is too mushy and start to get annoyed.

I DONT CARE!AND NEVER WILL!

Eternally missed,
Rahmat Hidayat

:--}

2009-10-04T16:20:00.002+08:00

Holla.Its been long.Been very bz dis few days to even update or watsoever.

Anw,the past week,beloved and parents had a unplanned meetup.Haha.Can see dat she was so scared dat her hand turns cold.Ahaha.Nk kawin senang ah ni mcm.Ultrasound scan and checkup coming up in 2 weeks time.Hopefully,its jz a normal muscle cramp.Oh well.Im bz scuring for new game.Next tym ya.

PS:What will you do if you received a threat call saying somebody want to stab you?

I
Miss
You
Baby

Your Respectfully,
Rahmat

2009-10-04T01:39:00.002+08:00

today, i got hit by a Foosball ball by aniq who threw directly at my forehead.

i could still feel the bump.

thanx aniq.

up down left right i scold that kid.

serve you right!

2009-10-02T02:33:00.006+08:00

so boring that bf is not updating altho he is online. urgh. guys.

ohwell. i guess i have to do the job lah kn.

guess wat i had an unplanned meeting the nasirudin's session.

it was so unplanned i tell u. i was not prepared mentally. altho i hope i dressed appropriately. lucky nvr wear skirt that day. phew!

so the story goes like this...

i met rahmat as usual. went to clementi to eat. but rahmat with his tummy always wants to shit. he is full of shit i tell u. literally ah. and he needs his home jamban and no other jamban. so the plan is i wait for him under the blk while he go shit. then go eat.

UNDER THE BLK, *jengjengjeng*, we met his mum who was waiting for the hubby to send her to giant for household shopping. and this rahmat leave me with the mother. then go shit.

shit btol.

panic sia. so here am i stuck with his mum under the blk. the first question the mother ask me ' Baru balek keje?' I was like err. tak keje. maseh skolah. then baru she was like oh.. nie eh..

then the usual talk about nie. the pay.

then there were awkward pauses. and this rahmat took like forever to shit. shit rock i think. not helping at all.

i panic cause i dont know wat to ask. then i start to ask about the mother's job as a teacher's assistant at a special school which was a good move i tell you. haha. cause it is like the only common interest: teaching. and we talk alot about it. she stress cause got some autistic kid bite her. BITE HER i tell you! haha! cute!

then my father in law sampai. oops. the father sampai. oh wait. before that when i run out of subjects to talk, i talk abt the cucumber my mum ask to buy. action lah like dont know where to buy. the when she know i wanted to buy cucumber, she ask me 'Ikotlh skali pegi Giant beli timun!' I was like 'WHOAAAHHH' She called rahmat to ask abt it. rahmat say no. smart!

after that. ok now the father comes into the story. i salam the mother then off she go to meet the father. and i cont to wait for rahmat, relieved. hee.

after a few minutes, the mother came back and say that the dad ask me to follow, just get inside the car, later he talk to rahmat. *whoooaaahh* so obediently, i tag behind the mother and sat inside the car.

then after another few minutes, clueless rahmat came wondering wher did i go to. haha! and i was in the car already. ahaha! so to cut story short. i went grocery shopping with the nasiruddin's. even had dinner with them.

what an experience.

rahmat's parents very nice people. after that send me home some more. 'Kirim salam kat mak bapak ye' So nice the dad. very very very nice people..

my shagged bf who is suffering from insomnia.

kesian.

Posted excitedly by Aicha Jazmeen.

2009-09-23T14:52:00.013+08:00

Hello! Hello! Hello!
BUSY! BUSY! BUSY!
I can get belo!
If i remain this busy!

hehehe! wah. i start with a pantun in my entry this time. hehehe!

Just to share fun, interesting and lawak things I discover this week!!

Funny Conversation
T: Eh! Raya that time my malay friend give me cow lungs! SO
DAMN NICE SIA!!!!
A: COW LUNGS!?!? WHAT SIA? COW HEART LAH... (hati lembu)
T: Noooo.. Its cow LUNGS!!
A: *thinkinghardsqueezingallmybrainjuice* Ohh... PARU!!!(Lungs=Paru)

C.O.A.C.H Bag

Once upon a time, i was coming down the escalator and then I saw a
brown sling COACH bag. And I was like 'Whoa! That must cost a bomb'. I look to see the owner. To my horror, its a guy.

Nyonya in skinnies

Once upon a time, I was in the bp mini train. At one stop, one nyonya like those ge-tai singers came in dressed in black halter neck top and black faded skinny jeans pushing the going-to-market-trolley. And I was like 'Aiyoh. Nyonya pon pakai skinnies. Beli
kat pasar ah ni' When she turned to exit, there on the back of her pants, in blings, R.I.V.E.R I.S.L.A.N.D

okay dokay. I need to go and finish my essay about moraledcrap.
finish my presentationslidescrap. start my e-tutorialscrap.

oh fyi. my life is crap.

and i missed my closeeessstt cousin's tunang!!!!

urgh. i told you my life is crap.

Poster crappily by Aicha Jazmeen.

Raye!!!

2009-09-16T22:16:00.003+08:00

Wah.It'll be Raya in a few days time.Time pass by so fast.Raya dis year gonna be hectic for me as i'll be having my induction programme on the 1st wk of Oct.It'll be a 1 wk thing.Got to geared up and suit myself with the shift work before the real thing comes in Nov.Be prepared k baby..I noe we're gonna go thru dis.

On a lighter note,went to break fast wif beloved at CCK park.We decided to give it a try since she says its nice.The food is ok.But the haze have to spoil everything.It was very hazy and i was suffocating from it.Managed to find a seat in CCK park.Surprised baby with a shiny whiny necklace from taka jewellery.And i got a surprise back in return with a surprise from her.haha.So sweet indeed.Thnk u baby!

Raya dis year will also be a memorable 1 as its the 1st tym i;ll be the 1 to give out green packets.haha.Orang dh keje lh katekn.hurhur.So kids,if u tink dat u need cash,come to my house ok.Oh.Bring along ur own kueh mueh and drinks along.Coz u'll oni be able to sit outside of my house as i wont open the door for u.Thnk u!

Ps:I still cant believe it.

2009-09-16T10:24:00.007+08:00

got a verrrry sweeet surprise from baby.

R: By. Want to see something funny?

A: Better be funny eh..

R: (insert his hand into his bag and took out a purple coloured box) For u baby.. Happy Belated Birthday!

A: *freakedout* Swweeet nyeeeee. Romantic jgk u nie eh..

R: I pon tk sangka i romantic gini...

kwang3.

and everything just falls into place with him putting the necklace on me.....

LOMATIC NYEEEEEEE!!!! TK LEH ANKGT SEH!!!!

*sigh*

to change or to embrace

2009-09-13T14:26:00.005+08:00

we are always fighting. over every single thing under the sun.

is it normal?

but after every fight, we always managed to reconcile and be all happy happy again. but before u know it, we are fighting all over again.

i dont know the reason why. whats more the solution to the whole fighting phenomena.

its like something inevitable in our relationship.

maybe its because we always expect a certain behaviour from our partner. and when he or she failed to fulfill ur expectation, we feel angry, disappointed, pissed off. and the only solution we could think of is changing. we want the other party to change but we cant change someone overnight. its impossible. so the only solution is embracing. so i just have to embrace this side of him and learn to deal with it in order to live with it.

i believe our undying love for each other is the one responsible in keeping us together till today despite all the fights, squabbles, quarrels that we had.

so i just hope that undying love will stay undying for a loong time...

adios.

posted emotionally by Aicha Jazmeen

2009-09-06T21:09:00.005+08:00

hey its my birthday!

yeay!

this year marks the end of teenhood! im over with the drama and whatever crap that I had to go thru as a teen that i never wish to remember at all.

yeah.. my teen years were that bad...

ohwell. lets embraced the adulthood with an open and mature mind. No more fooling around. I have to take more control of my life and start to plan out what i want to do for the next 10 years..

well. so here is the plan...

Get engaged at 26
Get married at 28.
get my own car at 25.
get my first burberry bag at 24.

and the list goes on and on.... heee!

and all this will take place with my dearest Rahmat by my side... Im so serious about him that we are already planning our future together. But all this keeping in mind that anything can happen.. But Im hoping for the best for the both of us. As even though our relationship is only like 9 months 13 days old, we have been through alot. We fight like a trillion times. Walk out of each other. Always. But we still pull through.. alhamdulilah.

So anyway. yesterday was bittersweet. met boyfriend at 11 plus so we can celebrate both of our birthdaes. when clock strikes midnite, he held my hands and wish me 'Happy Birthday'. *melts* and on my part i bake him a cake to make up for being the 8th to wish him. *aiyoh* and what im shocked is everyone was like helping me with the cake.
my bro. my sis in law. aniq. nurul. mum. sis. even my dad! haha! he was the one who help in the packaging!

hahaha!

and he allow me to go home at 2 yesterday with no cold treatment or whatsoever. i guess he is beginning to accept Rahmat. Alhamdulilah.

And im so impressed with my cake. Its so pretty! heee!

Posted with love by Aisah Jasmin.

Haapy Birthday!

2009-09-05T00:53:00.002+08:00

Holla.

Girlfriend falls asleep even before the clock strikes 12.How can she miss to be the 1st to wish me.Hmmph.Oh well.I dont really mind actually.Anw,happy birthday to us.I believe this additional 1 year to our age will make us more mature and to make us go wiser as well.

HAPPY

BIRTHDAY

TO

RAHMAT & AISAH

ILY

PS:I still cant believe that im blogging.hahs!

Yours Respectfully (Rahmat)

2009-09-03T23:05:00.005+08:00

dinie, esah and annie.

wierd combo.

but i must say it was really a fun meet up.

feeling our bellies with mac junkies and end it with the proposal.

it was a fun wednesday.

Entry By Aisah Jasmin

2009-09-01T19:57:00.002+08:00

I still cant believe that im being forced to blog. OMG. Rahmat? a blogger? haha. that sounds funny enough. And so,here i am,being held at knifepoint by my girlfriend to blog. haha. ok dats crap.

Spending the day today wif beloved at Jurong West library.Even breaking fast at the cafe here. Girlfriend has left me to find some books for herself. Oh well,enough about her. Lets move on to sum other stuff. Life has been fair enough to me,blessed with a wonderful but very irritating girlfriend. Secured myself a job even before i ORD. Dad got a new car. And stuffs like that. oh well. got to go.GF is here. i feel so uncomfortable blogging with her around.

Chao!

Your Respectfully, Rahmat Hidayat

2009-08-24T21:15:00.015+08:00

yesterday went to terawih with mum as usual at al-iman. for the first time, met with cik Annie kite for terawih. and what i can conclude is I can never be serious with annie around. she is like my laughing activator.

Annie and me goes long way back. She is among my first found friends during the first 3 months at Innova. And she has got to be the most interesting person i ever met. interesting in a good way of course. I always envy how she stand up for herself and fears nothing. annie.. anniee..

anw may our friendship last babe!

lets move on to my next favourite person, Rahmat Hidayat! Well this boy can be really a pain in the ass. He can be irritating at the wrong times and sweet at the correct times :) Although he can be very insensitive and very straightforward, I grew to be tolerant of his nonsense. And sometimes its because of these nonsense is what make me fall in love with him everytime.

I guess this is what being in a relationship is all about. It is about accepting each other's weaknesses, tolerance, patience and trust.

However, I have to admit that we have yet to develop the last one which is 'trust'. I guess its because of our own individual past experience that makes it hard to trust each other. But what is important is that both of us is making that effort to prove each other that we are trustworthy.

I really hope with all my heart that he is going to be my last and the one I want to grow old with. :):):)

Posted by Aisah Jasmin

2009-08-23T14:50:00.004+08:00

and today marks the end of en-elmo.blogspot.com existence.

cause from today onwards its a new blog shared between me and my new found love. actually not so new. till date, its already 9 months 4 days and still counting... Amin.

this blog is to signify a new beginning as i think it will help to tie us together through thick and thin. this blog will act as a medium for us to express any disagreement with each other and share our journey with u.

wow. i sound so serious! hahaha!

cut the crap! actually i just envy those who share their blog with their other half, so i thought why not i start a blog with my other half too! heee!

so stay tuned!